Introduction

 

I.  Jabberwocky

 

A Letter To Heidi, Never Sent

A Memoir Of Tara

A Memoir Of Melissa, In Anticipation

A Letter To Shara, Never Sent

A Letter To Lana, Never Sent, Never Intended

A Letter To Mancy, Never Sent, Never Intended

A Letter To Sister, My Sarah, Never Sent

A Letter To Natalie, To My Memory Never Sent

A Response To An Invite

A Letter To Gloria, To My Memory Never Sent

A Letter To Natalie, To My Memory Never Sent

A Letter To A Newborn (Our Sweetest Addition)

A Memoir Of New Jersey

A Memoir Of My High School Lunch Hour

Introduction To A Discontinued Journal

An Abandoned Thesis Statement

A Word On My Conviction Before God

An Unfinished Testimony

Notes For An Abandoned Apologetics Book

A Clarification Of Goals, Circa 1995

A Word On The Purpose Of Gospel Music

A Word On My Place In Art

A Reevaluation Of My Aspirations

A Few Random One-Liners

A Word On My Connection To Cain

A Word On My Humanity, Utterly Nonsensical

A Vision From A Moment In A Distant Future

A Word On All Music (The Silent Orchestra)

A Testimony For The Family Of My Betrothed

An Exposé Of Sorts, Concerning Appliances

A Word On The Implicit Nature Of Music

A Prayer For Reawakening

A Prayer For Redemption

A Prayer For Guidance

A Word On Structure

A Word On Morality

A Word On Predestination

A Word On Philosophy

A Word On The Sinful Nature

A Word On Over-Spirituality

A Word On Youth

A Word On Open-Mindedness

A Word On Ministry

A Word On The Christian Life

A Word On Experience

A Word On Listening

A Word On Submission

A Word On Time

A Word On The Middle Ground

A Word On Evangelism

A Word On Equality

A Word On Trials

A Word On The Bible

A Word On Context

A Word On God’s Favor

A Word On Truth

A Word On Amendments

A Word On Questioning

A Word On My Communication Skills

A Word On Beauty

A Word On Failure

A Word On My Introversion

A Word On Writing

 

II.  Idiōma

 

Shooting My One Wooden Foot

Haiku

The Dream Slate

Preacher Polish

After Months Of Nothing

Roommates Never Look In The Kitchen...

The Convex

State Of Affairs

The Twist Of Morning

Saturday, Throughout Panama City

A Better End

Surgeon General’s Warning

What We Miss

There Is A Flower Behind A Bush...

Humanity

Paneling

Litter-al

Solemn Anniversary

The Stabbing

Closely

It Was Not Like This

Fond October

An Odd Moment

The Occasional Cleansing

Budding

Apple Suicider

Where God Is

Monotony

Christmas In Tampa

Inspiration Abuse

Jubilation At A Loss

The Collection Plates

Congestion

During Worship

Israel

In The Waiting Room

When Even Now It Rains

Even God Must Sigh

Weekly Revival

Prison Cell

Jehovah Jireh

Sunday Service

He Comes In Waves

Nothing New Under The Sun

Nihilist

Empty Handed

The Way Things Are

Surely Large Animals Sleep Well

Another Monumental Miscalculation...

Mantras

Do Not Admire Me For Being Unique...

Pitch With A Grin

Banner

Gleaned From The Sermon That Sunday

From Inside Union 5

I Am Done With Community Living

The Dancing Beneath Your Blood

I Work In A Café

I’m Sure It’s The Alternator

Mardi Gras

Caricatures

Calculated Rhythms

Bleach & Honey

Complex

Judges

Gestation

Proper English

You

On The Rocks

Ancient Eves

Monday

 

III.  The Neologism Of The Necropolis

 

Seek You On My Own

Metropolis

The Workingman

Never Been Better (Ain’t That The Worst!)

Underlords

15 Minutes Of Anonymity

All Of This

Aunt Pam

Stick Girl

He’s Sneaking Back

Blind As Money

You’re Not Telling Me Anything

Christians Can Go To Hell

You Want Too Much

Mirrors Get It Reversed

Family Untied

The Nth Time My World Shattered

Collapse

This Abrasive Season

Cancer

A Message To The Insignificant Pricks

Lurch

Towers Of Babel

I Can Do Without This

Down Mt. Washington

The Procession

It’s Over, For Sure

The Trenches

Dehumanizer

Newsworthy

Chorus

Your Glory

 

IV.  The Malapropism Of Maudlin Gestures

 

The Whole Thing Is A Lie

Miles Of Dry Heat

The Morning After

Lament In Longing

What I Would Say To You If You Were Here

Life Between Breaths

Love Is A Many Splintered Thing

Reliving It

Please Don’t Bleed On Me

Seemed Worse At The Time

You Didn’t Destroy Me

Feeling Good Ain’t So Bad

A Change In Scenery

God Knows I Could Use You Now

Without Rafters

Don’t Let Me Live This Tragedy

The Girl Beside Me

The Beautiful Things

Oh… Drat!

Make Them About Me

Cannot Go Untouched

If I Haven’t Left By Now….

Sappy Ever After

In The Garden

At The Outset

Draw Me Out

It’s A Start

Not A Dime & Not A Care

Lore

Giving Me Grief

Bless That Girl

Easy On The Eyes

Don’t Stand There

Little One, Upward & Open

 

© 2003 by Ryan Christian Hedegard